WHY? WHY NOT! by Todd Rundgren
Almost as soon as they started, people stopped asking what the next big thing
would be. I was posed the question a few times myself, the answer of course
varying dependant on how I felt at the moment. If I was a bit depressed or
bored, the answer was "I Don't Know". If not, then the answer was relevant to
who or what was hot that week. Anyway, I think we ll feared that we were going
to end up like our parents and rock and roll would be like "Big Band Sound" -
something remembered but not alive. On one or more occasions, I told someone
that I thought "religious rock" would be the next "thing", as evidenced by the
then current popularity of George Harrison and John McLaughlin, amongst
others. I was only half serious because I did not know the difference between
what is "religious" and what is "spiritual". I have always had a dislike for
religion, so much so at times that I begin to equate morality with hypocrisy,
making it easy for me, like so many of us to be a cheap criminal of life, the
first step on the road to becoming one of those "over thirty" horrors we like
to scare ourselves about.
Every single one of these stiffs that you see abusing power, taking advantage
of his size and seniority, and generally disseminating the products of his
ignorance was once young and aspiring and, however glorius or perverted,
maintained a moral code. Why then and not now? Because when you are young, you
ask yourself "what am I doing here", you expect that at some point you might
recieve an answer. But as you begin to pass thirty and you still don't know
what you're doing here, you have little concrete to look forward to except
death. And this is why you give up your moral code and go for yourself because
if you have nothing to life for, you have little to lose. The point, after all
this build-up, is that you had better learn what you're doing here, and since
you don't know what, then obviously you are here to learn.
Before I can relate any of these realisations to you, they od course have to
occur to me first, and since my major mode of expression, outside of my own
lifestyle, is the "Modern LP Record", their influence will show first and most
vivadly therein. This brings up the pertinent question of why I make these
LP's in the first place. Although I can safely tule out making a living at it,
since I never have sold quite that many records, up until recently, I have not
seriously considered the reason myself. I now finally and publically admit
that I make records about 25% for personal satisfaction and about 75% to gain
attention. And why do I want all this attention, when I, like most people,
can't stand to have the way I live strutinised? I have always believed that I
live for a reason,that I contiunue to live sometimes without apparently any
reason but although I may now know it, there is a purpose to all this. Because
I continued to believe this I was granted the ability to know what my
existance is about and why I am here. My purpose is to make an asshole out of
myself in front of everyone, so that no one will be affraid to be an asshole.
In doing so, I will learn how not to be the asshole I would be if I sat on my
hands and "turned thirty" and never lived up to the unbelievable expectations
of the generations to which I was born. This generation of smelly hippies, VD
cariers, half-queers and freaks is going to panhandle, acid-trip and riot into
realms beyond the strained imagination of any that has lived before, provided
we don't all punk out. And that, in case you haven't figured it out by now, is
what this record is about.
The entire recorded works of Todd Rundgren, contrary to appearences, is a
continuous train of thought or expression and each album represents the
evening report in a week of events, packaged appropriately to accentuate the
highlights. This is why 'How about a little fanfare?' brings to ming Walter
Cronkite and that moderate sensory overload that accompanies the evening news.
Now here's what's happening...within about ten or twenty years, when faith in
technology reasches an all time low, experimental progress in psychic
phenomenon which began recently will begin to bear fruit. Someone will develop
a simple excercise that will tap the psychic and clairvoyant potential that is
discovered in newborn children in current and later generations (due, possibly
to chromosome mutation caused by drugs or radiation or just plain attitude).
Through this exercise, and in the same manner that kids learn to read and
write, the power of mental telepaphy will become commonplace and most will
devote their energies to supra-concious exploration of the universe. That is
in case you can't figure this from listening to 'I think You Know'. Just
imagine how silly I feel trying to sing a song about thinking.
Many eastern spiritual studies proport that this universe is consiousness in
myriad forms, and that all existance is formulated from a single building
block. This is 'The Spark of Life', starting from the greatest simplicity and
highest conciousness and moving through the universe, tracing the outline and
substnace of all that exists on all planes; every thought ever thought. Yes,
boys and girls, there really is a Santa Claus! The story of why I cram all
this into a record is told in 'An Elpees worth of Toons', and believe me, it's
not because I've got an elpees worth of toons.
I have performed 'A Dream Goes on Forever' in concert for years, but this is
the first recording of it. It is one of my first sexless love ballads, meaning
it can be sung by anyone to anyone, for what it's worth. The roots becoms much
more exposed on 'Lord Chandellor's Nightmare Song' as I have never dared do
this in public. It was written by Gilbert and Sullivan as part of an operetta
about fairies, providing the fad is not so current. Words are still good for a
laugh once in a while, but not much to say about the 'Drunken Blue Rooster'
which is pretty much a musical joke (but a good joke!).
It sets us up giggling for 'The Last Ride', like ITYK, a cosmic ballad and the
first time in recent memory that my foot has touched a wah-wah pedal. The
lyric summed up thusly..."I thought I knew just just everything, I had it made
and I could coast, But I turned away love when I needed it most."
Nobody would contest the fact that this generation likes to get high and take
a lot of things through it's mouth to get that way. One might say you haven't
lived until you thought you were going to die. Some of the thoughts that go
through ones mind while peering curiously over the bring are jotted down in
'Everybody's Going to Heaven'. This desire will eventually work itself out
when the natural ability to get high is acquired. And when this happens we
will all rejoice and we will trip all night and boogie all day and watch the
big monkey do the 'King Kong Reggae'.
Speaking of getting high, many people often prefer the old 'No. 1 Lowest
Common Denominator', in a word, sex. 'Total Orgams', Tantricc Yoga, and
'Marriage Made in Heaven' are all means to this end, getting high. Anyone who
marvels at his own preoccupation with his glands will be dumbfounded as I was
when I learnt that straight people have been getting high since time
immemorial this way. And I mean HIGH, like you can't imagine, all with proper
self control. Think abou it while you're balling and listening to the song.
The next three toons, 'Useless Begging', 'Sidewalk Cafe', and 'Izzat Love?'
are all old songs and represent here a kiss off to a style (or Styles) in
which I will probably never write again. One might say my wimping days are
over. (Cafe might make a good theme for the midnight movie.) One might also
get the impression that I was breaking out of some kind of shell in 'Heavy
Metal Kids', but to tell the truth, my father neither drinks nor owns a
pistol, so I often then to be singing not about myself, but I am, in the words
of the poets, 'talkin' 'bout my generation. But you aint heard heavy metal
until you heard 'In and Out The Chyakras We Go'. Actually, matter is energy in
this case so make that heavy energy music. Although it is commonly considered
to be impossible, much of the inspiration and composition for this pieve came
from the machines. The ryhthmic structure is entirely their own and just as
with a human player, it affects the way in which I perform. What is the
difference between human energy and machine energy when it comes to sound? But
yu can make believe that a machine could make music that made you feel
something? Chakras, by the way, are the organs of sense on the higher planes
of consiousness. Activating them has a lot to do with sex. See what I mean?
See how much we have to learn? 'Don't you Ever Learn?' is the last admonition
fro myself, and the generation to which I belong, not to turn our backs and
get so high we float off this planer that we were born to. And in case we fuck
up, I leave it to the next generation, 'Sons of 1984', to take it from at
least the highest point we can reach.
A double LP says so much that to talk about it at all seems to be beating
things into the ground. It is even harder to talk about an album that was
finished four months ago, and would have been released then but for the
commercial success of a single that was two years olf. Then as the vinyl
shortage moved in, so did pressure for a single LP. Everyone who makes records
has a reason, but I make them to hear, not to sell. It's pretty lame and I'm
sorry about that but I still think it's important. I belong to the spiritually
ripe generation anxious to change things and make them better, but this makes
us suckers for any so-called "spiritual" pressure groups that need tools.
Remember that before you change anything you are here for something else. You
are here to learn.